Episode 51: Unsure Of Where I’m Landing

All right, y’all, so this episode is gonna be a little bit different. This is gonna be part one of a two-part episode, but you’re not gonna get part two until sometime in January, and I’ll tell you why that is.

So, right now, it is December 9th. I’m recording this episode before the holiday break, and right now, I don’t know what my resolutions are going to be. I don’t know what my goals are for 2023, and, like many of you, I do feel a sense of pressure, especially since I’m so public about all of my goals. I do feel a sense of pressure that I need to come up with something, I need to commit to something.

So, in this episode, I’m gonna talk to you about some of the ideas I’m having. I’m gonna give you a very transparent look into my brain, and then in the follow-up episode which I’ll record in January, and it will air in February, I will tell you where I ended up, and I’ll give you the story of how I got there, but this way you can see, effectively, the before and after of what it looks like for me to set a goal.

Okay, so, here’s where I’m at right now. I have signed up for a half marathon in March of 2023, and I have also signed up for a novice powerlifting meet in late April of 2023, and both of those things, for me, are fun. They’re something that I’m doing to kind of give myself variety. I’ve wanted to do hybrid training for a long time I think because so many of my internet friends do it, and I’m #influenced in the best way by Alyssa at Doclyss and Laura and Jess at Everwild. So, there are a bunch of people, and I’ve been inspired by them, right?

But those, to me, don’t feel necessarily like a big scary goal I think because I’ve run a half-marathon before on very little training so I know I can do it even if I didn’t train, and I’ve done a powerlifting meet before at this point. So maybe I’ll get all jazzed up about that, but right now, I’m not super enthusiastic about them.

Another thing that I’ve thought about is some sort of financial goal. Saving money is gonna be a priority for us in 2023 just because of some stuff that we want in the next couple of years that I’ll talk about, I’m sure, at some point, but I also don’t know anything (like, I know nothing) about investing, personal finance. I have a 401K, but that’s about it, and that’s an area I’m really curious about.

I also liked my 2022 tidy journey, and I’m not sure that journey is over. And so, part of me wants to keep going on that. Part of me wants to focus on another word. I’ve thought about focusing on the word resilient in 2023 just because I really like the idea of building my resilience and knowing that my life is gonna get more stressful as my business grows, as things change. There are times ahead that are more stressful than what I’m experiencing now, and so, I want my resilience to grow so I’m better able to handle those moments. So, I think that would be something fun to work on.

I also have thought about some frequency goals like do I want to work on getting up in the morning by a certain time a certain percentage of the year. So, say, I want to be up before 7:00 AM for 300 days of the year or something like that.

I’ve also thought about a daily walk goal. At the beginning of 2021, I set a goal to go for a walk 90% of the year. I did not meet that goal, but I think it would be fun to set the exact same goal again and see if I can beat my past self in all the change that I’ve done in the past two years. And so, I really am liking that idea.

But that is where I’m at right now. There is no clarity, there is no certainty, and I think that in these moments we want to tell ourselves that there’s some process we have to follow or that we have to make a decision or that if we just had more information then we’d be able to make a choice. We almost try to rush ourselves into it, but as you can hear me in this podcast tell you, I’m not rushing into anything.

I have three weeks to think about it. I have been thinking about it for the past three weeks, and I think the real lesson here is part of change is being in the in between, part of change is being in the undecided, in the uncertain zone, and it’s uncomfortable here. It feels unstable. It feels like I have no direction. It feels like I’m not moving forward, whatever that even means, but sitting in uncertainty and thinking deeply and letting things process, that is a part of growth.

And so, I will update you in a future episode about where I landed and how I landed there, but this is the before, the messy, uncertain, chaotic brain of Karin Nordin with four or five different goals, unsure of what she’ll prioritize or where she will land.